out of ashes rises ... ?
well ... it's clear
what lupin and i must do
we're doin' the phoenix!
out of ashes rises
... us ...
a new entity - a new 'us'
not the former us
not the same marriage
no no no
so, now we build
a new house
to replace the one
we torched so brilliantly
he, at his end
with his assigned tasks
me, at my end
with mine
and us
he and me
engaging a choice
lupin and velvet
choose to spend
their lives together
freedom of person
for, one can have
fidelity and freedom
in a marriage.
so ...
freedom = no entrapment
entrapment?
yes, entrapment.
for ... having nowhere else
to ever awake
aside from beside your partner
forever
that seems quite a sentence, no?
don't get me wrong.
remember i mentioned FIDELITY
but personal freedom -
that means freedom to be oneself
you know ...
not get absorbed into
someone else's matrix
freedom ... FIDELITY ... respect ... the three big ones.
i have permission
to seek out
another woman,
but not
another man
i could not bring myself
to seriously physically consider
anyone but lupin ... really
and so we make our way up the cinnamon hill.
its sweet and a little piquant.
and i am grateful for it.
